Caffeine Fueled.

Fresh from a workout, chest/bis/back. I love my Saints hat. ---"Who dat??"

I haven't posted on here since May. There hasn't been much to report really. I'm not sure what to say.

I'm going back to school in a few weeks, finally working on being a lawyer, thank God. I have been feeling so incredibly useless. My class schedule is really good (i.e., engaging AND easy), and I get to stay at my amazing job as an optometric assistant for the coolest eye doctor in town. Of course, everyone there keeps confusing me, telling me what an amazing eye doctor I would be (!!) True or not, I am going to be a lawyer, dammit! And make tons of cash!

All the puppies are gone to loving homes, and I kept the eldest for myself, his name is Spot. 

He looks just like his daddy. He is six months old on the 21st! :)

Tomorrow is the bodybuilder's first contest and he is super tan, like a pecan or something. A walnut maybe?? I am going to post lots of pictures of it next post, if I can ever find my fucking camera cord. He's also doing a shoot with my friend/coworker Evan Brennan (he's based out of Greensboro and AMAZING, look him up) and hopefully I can sneak into a shot...
I have decided to pursue my own contest next summer, in the bikini (or figure) division, which will be interesting. I don't think anyone thinks I can do it, and I myself am a little skeptical. My bodybuilder thinks that I'm not strong enough to do it (as far as my willpower goes) but if I can starve myself, then I can do what he does, dammit. The sky is the limit--that's what I have to believe, or I'll never reach it.

I drank a Lo-Carb Monster preworkout at 10:30 and I have been going off its fuel ever since! That's why I never drink those things, I can just go and go and go!

Guess what I'm going to be doing this weekend?

Every time I post I try to leave with a lesson. 

I've learned several things lately.

First, Body Shop makes the best lip stain. You can use it on your lips OR your cheeks, and it gives you that "I just worked out and/or had sex" flush that lasts forever and looks so natural. I have a lot of sixteen hour days between working out, meetings, and my full time (all consuming yet rewarding) job, so I need all the help I can get without being weighed down because I HATE having a lot of shit on my face. So this stain is my little miracle. Plus I always enjoy looking like I just had sex. 

Second, NO ONE is going to really look out for you, but you. Except maybe your mom, if you have a good one, which I actually do. But since I'm an adult, I had to leave the nest and everything, and I figured out recently, I have to watch my own damn back because no one else is going to. I have to be selfish, mean, even nasty at times, to put what I want for myself in motion, be it my workout, my job, or going back to school. All  that shit is on my shoulders, and that's exactly where that shit belongs, because if it's my responsibility, then, sink or swim, I can't blame anyone but me for the outcome.